Taking a big gulp from Starbucks¡¯ Caramel Frap, one hand grabbing tuna sandwich, another trying to balance open Sex and the City novel.  A pretty chilling time this lady is having in the centre of urbanized country. Occasionally seeing movie stars and singers, models, big bosses from big companies. BMW, Exxonmobil, Chevron, Nike, Adidas,  you name it.. Princes from all over the world bringing his empire troop over, governments from nearby countries.. ahh, talking about living in Hollychinawood.

So far the powerpoint slides are smooth, the English lesson I¡¯ve been running are always welcomed with open arms, with students asking for more and more handouts. So treasured that I don¡¯t wanna leave. Its more of getting my boots licked, than licking my bosses boots. But face the fact. I love Shangri-La, but I want Hilton. Got it? Thanks to all the support and appraisals I got here, that never will be tasted anywhere else in the world. Just wanna get married and done with work, totally.

And , I am so serious I want to tie this knot quickly. QUICKLY. Why why all of a sudden with this feeling. Thanks to my eyecandykevin who is married and there he is teasing about ABC¡¯s breasts and DEF¡¯s butts. Being a 1.9m/30¡¯s Head-chef so awesomely goodlooking and honeyed-mouth, any girl will be willing to be his second.

I have actually signed the contract to extend my stay in Guangzhou, beyond the thoughts of anyone, including myself. Things changed. How much¡­ how much I miss home. The smell of dad¡¯s shampoo, dad¡¯s car, mom¡¯s occasional brush of her cheek against mine. Funny that the older I got, the more I miss home. Singapore, Jakarta, wherever.

I miss you so much emmaxiang.  I miss you so much. Also Luzernbahnhof kebab. I miss seeing baby swans. I miss strolling aimlessly with basiltan. Miss LeeJaeIn¡¯s farting session. Miss the spooky walk out of Seeacherweg 1. Miss the shivering wait for bus 21. I miss Switzerland, missing the life I had. Why are you so so so freaking awesome compared to anywhere that anyone ever had? When will I taste that kind of living again? J I want you back so much.. batch 2010A of IMI, Lucerne.

Surprise.

Its my 3^rd monthasary of being in Shangri-La Guangzhou CHINA!

Really such a blessing to be here and I swear I have no idea how to explain how everything turned 180 degree from bad to perfect within this month. Pull up a chair and I¡¯ll tell you everything when I¡¯m back, darlings.

I started dragging myself back to Microsoft Powerpoint for many times. Took me one sweatful week to complete one simple set of slides to teach my colleagues English. Yes, I got promoted! The fastest promotion in Shang.s Guangzhou history.  Sad it will only another 3 months of pride and joy.  Now, am really considering staying or to go back to my little sunny island. being such a jewel here, stealing every customers. heart and the boss(es) and colleagues¡¯ hearts. Back there, I will just be another Degree holder working in a hotel, aye? Tough decision, really tough ¡­ But.. I really miss my ION..

Back to compare exactly last year, at this point of time I.ve already conquered Paris and Barcelona. Now, not even Shenzhen which is only an hr of train journey away, COME ON HANY! Gonna lose my great call name if this continues.

Within this 3 months, I WILL have my new territories

¡¤         Shenzhen (again)

¡¤         Macau

¡¤         Hong Kong (again)

¡¤         Si Chuan (I will eat my fat belly out there!!)

¡¤         Beijing (too far though)

¡¤         Hu nan

¡¤         Shanghai

¡¤         Fo shan

Well, more to come. But will need lotsa sacrifices and begging from my managers to give me day off(s). tsk.

So far, Bro is here in china but has no time to meet him. Erick actually came to guangzhou but I was so sick to meet him ARGH!! Now waiting for sis.s arrival next week!! FINALLY!

Cant believe it. Back then I was so screwed by how slow time passed. Now.. WOW its May soon. June will be the best ever to have EMMA here. And july, not to mention. Tears and love pouring.

Just a little secret I need to share. This 25yr old Eric Yang has such a smooth complexion and sexy tough muscular fair smooth pair of arms. :D

When I look at the current situation of my pathway now is unremarkably preordained. First, it started by me saying how cruel retribution is. And how much damage it will make if it really happens. Started regretting one's deed and make one look back at everything that happened.

What, actually happened. Exactly same kind of situation but different reasons and different beloved back than in 2004. I rot and died back then in 2004, with no trace left behind. But this time round, I can't stop thinking how gracious my fate brings me to. Then, I have all the time and freedom to check on it till I fall deeper into the sorrow. Its blog, its Friendster back then, and facebook till now, its sadist e-mail, its exact figure features shadow and it's everything is open for me to check every single second. Digging my own grave on my own will. And it took me almost 3 years to find a new one for the sake of replacing it, and 5 years to start moving on from it, and till now to forget it.. and not yet succeed.

Now, thanks to the Great Wall of China, I am forbidden to check on the new IT, to see it for the last time in my life, to touch it, to contact it, to even have a time to mourn for it. Thanks to the Great Wall of China that forbids any access to facebook, to the dreadful internet connection here, to the hundreds-of-kilometers-apart from it, to harry who has no internet access in Singapore to help me check on it, to emma who is very busy and no credit on her phone to listen to my favours to check on it, to my time-ass-packed and tiring schedule with work, and eventful of friends that drags me to dinner, somehow I managed to kinda.. forgive you. Let go of you. Leave you. Thank god my retribution might not be as bad as it seemed. Maybe He understands that I learnt my lesson. Or maybe it had not started yet. Whatever it is, I hope it will be better from now. Amen.

oh by the way, Happy Birthday Basil Tan! hope you're having a great time with fam & friends. big cheers from guangzhou..

This is the only tangible service I've known for the best, faithful and loyal to me. It gives me pleasure and listening ear in my most dreadful moment when neither facebook or twitter is available. Tried my very best with all the supports I have to gain back hotspot shield to access to facebook and youtube, but failed. Thankyou Kristen for all the help in getting it anyways. Its not the problem of the download system or procedures to use it. Its just the problem of the Great Wall of china that blocks my access.

Have yet to read all my birthday wishes last month. yes exactly 29days ago. really missing it a lot. and now, a detailed update of the girl who is misplaced to a country called China. Her sewing is half way complete. More precisely it was just until the 2nd colour when suddenly the purpose to complete vanished. Totally gone. God knows when she'll resume to it again. Maybe never. And let it rot in the country together with all d freaking useless memories that used to drive her. But once again, awed by the creator of Karma. Nothing is more malevolence than retribution. Makes her recall back of this guy that once stepped into her life giving all his heart and soul and everything he's have for the sake of making her happy, and yet everything can make her happy but him. Irony. After recalling, I feel sorry for him. Real sorry. Now that everything backfires, she and I feel sorry for each other. This urbanised city is nothing but a wonder to one's eye. Totally amazing at how people behaves, think, and live. China, no wonder you are so developed. And I mean both positively and negatively. Propaganda and tough motivation drilled into their character.. but its just not a place for ONE easy-going little girl who is just here to 'look around'. There should be something hidden here awaits. Well maybe I should try looking for a popular place with international schools and home of the foreigners. Maybe life will be much more colourful. Hax. Im still waiting for the dear ones coming here to visit me and we can laugh at them together. Another 4 months will pass by like a breeze, just like in Switzerland. Yes? Well I do hope time passes faster here. But it seemed that an hour dragging to like a day here already. I don't know how this will reach to those looking for me via facebook. But anything, japhany@gmail.com. Like, that's the only access I have totally. Not even happyhany blog. Im just here typing it out but unable to access to my own blog, so I have no idea if there is any comments or shoutout written to me. Ah.. waiting for time passes here is really a torture without any motivation. Not even to finish working and get home. To see handphone without a single msg, to go online without anyone talking, to wait for a goodnight phone call without anyone calling. Pathetic? Yes. Here I am once again going through these mess, alone away from everyone in a country called China.